good weekend.

this weekend was perrrfect. jordan came up friday and i made a delicious dinner (well, i thought so, i don't know about J & john!)... here's the link for the dinner i made http://www.bhg.com/recipe/pasta/spinach-tortellini-with-beans-and-feta/. i love beans and i love cheese, so it was perfect for me! we got up early-ish saturday and drove to the st joseph/benton harbor area where jordan's uncle ernie and aunt julie live. i was not expecting how beautiful it was on the lake! i felt almost like i was in one of the carolinas! i told jordan, is it bad that i didn't know a place like this existed in michigan? haha. most of what i know of MI is detroit, and i don't like detroit :) we ate some delicious food and gelato and walked along the beach. so pretty!

we went to church sunday morning and met one of the oldest female graduates of Miami randomly, class of 1936! how crazy is that?! she was an adorable little old lady. ernie and julie took us then to a little bakery/restaurant near the park we were camping at and i got the most incredible cake cakes i have EVER tasted in my entire life. they were amazing. J and i headed to warren dunes state park afterwards and set up camp! in our tent finally! it was blazing hot, but we hung out at the beach all day (used half a bottle of sunscreen!), ate hotdogs & marshmellows over the fire, climbed sand dunes, played bocce ball and walked on the beach to watch the sunset. it was perfect.

we headed home this morning and a shower never felt so good! i'm not a super foo-fooey girl, BUT i do like my showers. and it was hard to get used to the nasty hole-in-the-ground toilets. eek. but i do love camping. and hopefully will be able to do it for longer periods of time this fall! jordan just left...super ready for a little direction here and some clue as to when this long distance crap can end. glad that this is a four day work week and i get to go home this weekend.

wedding this weekend!

this weekend is nick and beth's wedding (nick is jordan's college roommate, beth is my good friend too!) in oxford and i couldn't be MORE excited!!! i'm so happy to be a part of this whole process for them and it's just going to be so amazing to see them get married on saturday. they are the first in our little miami group to get hitched. so weird, but so so good. i love them both! and they are just perfect together. colby and addy will be there too, it's about dang time we are reunited. i am taking off friday and J and i are driving down friday morning. can't WAIT! i love weddings! can't wait until its my turn :)

still sort of stressing out about the whole job/cincinnati thing. found out today my friend who i want to live with down there has to sign her renewed lease by june 1st or her rent goes up. and i just can't commit until i have a job since i have no money. so looks like i won't be living with her. which sucks. obviously i won't have a job lined up by june 1st. got some semi-good news from cinci though- the last job i applied for in feb there had a status of "route" for my online application forrrever, and apparently that means it i got passed the first round, and someone was looking at my application, i just didn't get picked for an interview. that's a start i suppose.

so please say a prayer something comes up. i know it will happen in His timing, but i hate this feeling like i'm never going to get out of this place that i've been stuck in since november. and that i'm never going to be in the same place as J.

michigan.

well i was informed by my oh so caring boyfriend that i never use the word "bandwagon" correctly haha apparently that is not how you use it in the last post i had. i'm just going to stop using it all together because i feel stupid when i use it and he corrects me (which is every time i try to say it!) oh bother....

i moved to michigan last weekend. our house is really nice but needed a lot of cleaning. so i spent allll day monday scrubbing blinds, washing windows and scrubbing kitchen cabinets. i felt very domestic. it's kind of weird to me that i am going to have a boy roommate for the first time and it's not my husband, but i suppose it will be very vague practice in having a male roommate before i get married haha. jordan stayed all weekend helping me unpack, run errands, grocery shop, and he deserves one thousand gold stars for putting up with me yet again during a move. i am not the most pleasant person when i don't know where i am, how to get places, etc. he left sunday night and it was one of the hardest byes thus far...i hate being somewhere i am so disoriented to. and i live in a fairly safe area...however it's no troy. we did get to babysit the fam i watch in birmingham...sophie has grown SO much and took to me right away! yay! makenna kept trying to put pink lip gloss on jordan...so cute :) it was cute to see J play with the girls too!

i'm looking forward to the weekend to see baby sister go to her LAST prom (weird!) in her beautiful dress and have a fam cookout for tay's birthday and mother's day. i miss charlie too!! i'm so glad i'm only moving to cincinnati in august...i am too much of a homebody to be so far away from home. ha. that's all for now!

eek!

so i've fallen off the blogging bandwagon. whoops. i've sort of got stuck in a dry funk this last month or so. haven't wanted to write in here, write in my journal (in over a month! that's huge for me!) or read my bible. or read anything else for that matter. no wonder i've been so crabby lately. i'm not pleasant when i get stuck in these ruts. i get pessimistic, hopeless, grumpy, impatient...the list goes on. i look at what everyone else has and think that i will never have these things (a JOB, get married, pay off loans, you get my point). and i hate that. i look at other people's lives and think "if only mine was like this, or like that, i would be happy..." REALITY CHECK MEGAN! not true! side note-i don't really believe i won't ever have those things, i just get impatient.

so i'm jumping back in headfirst and digging into Him this week. i hate these dry spells where i don't feel Him around me. or constantly focus on other people's lives. i need to start believing that the promises of the Lord are true, not just for other people, but for ME too. He wants to bless me. i don't write this to sound self-centered, or focused on myself...but it's difficult for me to freely accept that the Lord truly wants to bless me and will follow through on His promises over my life. i pray these things over others all the time, but it's hard for me to wholeheartedly accept them and believe these things will come to me as well.

i really dislike how difficult it is to jump back in once i've put things off for a while. it doesn't make sense to me because of course i want to be spending time with the Lord again, be in the Word...but i keep putting it off. it's easier to sit down in front of a tv and not spend time journaling or reading. sad. no more though, my heart needs to jump in again and stay there. i don't like who i am apart from God.

poor trees

so i when i was running yesterday, i ran my typical 4 mile route and ran by this house that was cutting down a perfectly healthy, rather large tree!! i get upset when people cut down trees for no apparent reason. (granted maybe there WAS a reason, i just don't know it) so toooday when i ran the same route, they were cutting down the same tree on the opposite side of the house!! ahh!! i wanted to run up and ask what the heck are you doing?! maybe i sound like a major tree hugger, buuuut this really makes me angry! i put up a fuss when my parents cut down a tree in our front yard. i put up a fuss whenever my parents change anything from when i was a kid though (new refrigerator, new couches, etc. i know weird...)

anyways, i guess my post has no real point. but i do think God had a TON of fun creating nature and animals. seriously, how cool of a job does He have? He got to do whatever He wanted! Sure, humans are pretty, but not too much to play around with. but with flowers, plants, animals, He got to do whatever He wanted. i think God most likely has a big sense of humor :) see below!


i don't even know what this top animal is!

porcupines, how funny!

i didn't mean God didn't have fun creating us haha i just think He probably had so much fun creating all these creatures around us! can i get a hoorah for this amazing 80 degree weather we've had recently?! i love it.

its official!

i'm moving back to michigan! (who woulda thunk?!) i got the official ok from the big dietitian boss at children's hospital and i'm doing the pediatric fellowship there. i am SO excited to finally get the chance to work with kids! and for longer than a two week rotation. annd i can't wait to write a note and sign it with, Megan Comer, R.D. how exciting is that?! weird that i have letters after my name. too bad they haven't gotten me a paying job thus far...ugh.

i know this fellowship is a gift and i think i'm very blessed to be doing it because they are not publicly offering it since they did not receive any grant money this year. but the fact that i did not have to interview for it and am not getting paid one single penny to do it keeps messing with my head. which i know sounds stupid, but its how my head works. i keep thinking, oh this is a last resort because no one wants to hire me. BUT i know that this is where i'm supposed to be, as much as its not any fun to be working pro bono once again. it's what i want for my career and this will give me an excellent foot in the door when i try to get a peds position. and i prayed for clarity with what i was suppose to choose, and then i got rejected from all the applications i had out and was not offered the Akron position. pretty straight forward right? i was still mad at God though for getting rejected. funny how we pray for these things and when they aren't exactly what we really want or think we need, we get mad at Him. sorry God.

anyways, i'm starting probably one month from today and living with ryann's boyfriend john who's doing an internship at the dearborn police dept. ha! kind of funny, but it will work out well, i'll def feel safer living with him! off to watch new moon with tay tay :) so glad my family is home from vaca, i missed them a lot. happy easter!

good weekend.

i had a great weekend. jordan came and kept me company as half of my family is currently in Jamaica and left me home to dogsit. (i am getting paid though, so i'm somewhat ok with it ha) we celebrated our three year anniversary since it's this wednesday and we won't see each other. i made him one of my quilts and i'm pretty sure he liked it a lot! we went out to dinner saturday night in toledo and i found a fabulous pair of grey work pants at gap which i have been searching and searching for!

the only sucky part is the whole goodbye part. i am so incredibly sick of this long-distance stuff. going on two years of it now and it's just sort of annoying. it definitely has been a blessing being able to spend a week here and there with him and his family, but still...i can't wait to be in the same place. to do normal stuff together on a regular basis, like grocery shop, cook, take a walk, just have a regular relationship. until then...hooray for seeing each other on the weekends. someday...