Sunday, January 23, 2011

new site.

so i've been wanting a "new start" for a blog. i know i just started this one, but i haven't been completely thrilled with how i can make it look. no matter how i work with it, it looks so "bloggy", if that even makes sense. since i'm not tech-savvy, i wanted somewhere else that was easier to make a blog look how i want to i've switched to word press. click below for my new blog!

i found word press to be easier to use and design what you want. happy reading!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

i'm back.

alright, i'm back. at least i'll try to be back. i'm reading this book called cold tangerines by shauna niequist and it's fabulous. its a collection of short essays written by the author about everyday life experiences that she has had. it's nothing life changing and i haven't felt like i've read anything that has been completely life changing. but it's an incredibly refreshing book, reading about normal life experiences and seeing how essential it is to embrace those moments and live for those. it is an extremely honest and truthful book. you should read it.

i struggle a lot with waiting for that next big event in my life or waiting for that one thing that will make everything better. deep down i know this is not how life works. i want to be happy in the moment. in this day that God has given me. and when i have my eyes on Him, i am happy and i am peaceful. when i don't, i'm anxious and fearful.

so today i am thankful for so much. i'm thankful for my health, minus my sore, bruised knees from my futile attempts at snowboarding yesterday! i'm thankful for the time i've had so far in cincinnati with jordan and for how our relationship has grown since we've been here. and i'm thankful that God always welcomes me back with open arms when i've been focusing too much on me, myself and i. it's a good feeling to fall back into His arms full of grace and love.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

creature of habit.

i'm totally a creature of habit. i like tradition, i like to go to familiar restaurants and vacation places. i enjoy watching the same movies over and over again. i love home. i have a hard time moving new places, would rather go to a restaurant i've been before (to get my favorite dish haha) and don't have a problem watching harry potter for the bazillionth time. part of the reason why i'm like this is because i struggle with change which makes life rough sometimes, but i enjoy the memories and warm, fuzzy feelings associated with the things i like and am used to. it's not that i don't want to try new things or go new places (ok, sometimes this is true), i jut enjoy having memories behing everything in my life. i love remembering all the times i've had in hilton head with my family. i don't want my parents to sell our house because that's where we all grew up together, it feels like leaving something behind.

liking tradition is one thing (and not a bad thing), but holding on too tightly is another. yes, i love the things in my life that remind me of the incredible family and friends i have and all the memories throughout the years. but i forget too easily that there are so many more memories to be made and things to be remembered. i get scared that my future isn't going to be as filled with great family, friends and memories that my past has been filled with and then i remind myself how silly this is and how big the God i serve truly is! i have no clue how i'm going to buy a house someday, be able to afford kids let alone take awesome family vacations, but i'm glad that that's all taken care of. i don't need to worry about it and that's a good feeling. will i still worry about it? yes. but at least i can start reminding myself to remember why i don't need to.

Friday, December 10, 2010

first quarter done!

so jordan is through one quarter of grad school! i can't believe it's done already, it really seems like he just started. but at other times it seems like it's been forever because of the constant workload he ALWAYS has and not being able to do much. i have been in the architecture world for long enough to know that grad school was not going to be a walk in the park. obviously it was worse for him than me, but it's still challenging. it definitely makes me appreciate more when we actually can do things together and appreciate the little things, even when he typically is working every night of the week. here's a top ten list of things i've learned being an outsider to the world of architecture through the years (i've decided to be a little creative this post!):

10. don't ask how much longer they have to work on a project. if they give an answer of 2 hours, it probably means 4 or 5 more hours of work. i think they like to be optimistic, but 90% of the time they don't get done in the amount of time they think they will. (i still ask J this question though...ha)

9. unless my future kids do not sleep when they are babies, i don't think i can comprehend the sense of pure exhaustion arch students feel when pulling 2 all nighters in a row and then having to give a review about their project right after. on no sleep.

8. i don't think you can be an architecture student (ungrad or graduate) and NOT like coffee. or some sort of caffeinated beverage.

7. no matter how early a project is started, it seems like it's never early enough and there is always some anxiety on how it's going to get done.

6. designing anything takes immense amounts of time. i no longer have the attitude of "oh, it's just a drawing (or model), you can whip it up quickly." that doesn't happen.

5. even though i don't quite understand it all, i've developed recently a huge appreciate for design in general, how it affects, influences and enhances the world around us, thanks to jordan.

4. you have to be an extremely passionate and dedicated person to pursue this field. i definitely see that in jordan and i love that. i think that spills into other areas of their lives as well.

3. i'm amazed at the vast amount of options you have to choose from in art stores. who knew there were 2837 different kinds of paints and paint brushes to choose from? i don't even know what half the stuff in those stores do. i wish i do though, they are pretty neat places!

2. i am fascinated by the creativity and artistic abilities that j has. it's amazing to me when he explains his projects to me (i try my best to understand) and know that he created it all himself.

1. apart from me being completely artistically challenged, i could never be in this field. it takes a special type of person to do it, and i'm not that special!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


whoops. it's been a while. you would think since all i do during the day is take care of the world's cutest baby, that i would write in here more often...but sadly, that's not the case. i doubt anyone is dyiiiing to read a blog update by megan though!

i'm looooving cincinnati right now. and being in the moment and feeling a lot of PEACE about where i'm at and not freaking out thinking about the future, a different job, you know...typical things that are usually always overtaking my mind and stressing me out. perhaps it is some of the holiday spirit settling in, but i have just felt overwhelmingly blessing and thankful the past few weeks as thankful for my family, friends, jordan, making awesome memories with all these people, having the best home to go home to, and on and on.

if i let myself, i will think "some people my age have a house, kids, 401K plans, etc..." and i'm like AH! i'm never going to get there or catch up, i'm so behind. but then i remember the God i serve. who WILL provide these things when it is my time. and i have found a lot of peace in enjoying the freedom i do have right now not having these things yet. of course i'm looking forward to all those things (well maybe not having a mortgage, which is tricky to spell btw) and for those who are to that point in their lives, that's GREAT! but i'm not there yet...and i'm ok with that. i have always been one to compare myself to everyone around me and always (i mean always) comparing myself to wherever they are or whatever they look like or are wearing and i'm sick of that. it's not productive, and there is no benefit in doing that for me.

so anyways, i'm in a good place. and i'm happy about that. and i'm looking forward to harry potter this weekend, spending a week at home, turkey, poppyseed rolls, the lewis family, going to church, everett and starbucks date with morgan! and some shopping in there too!

Monday, November 1, 2010

holy moly.

holy moly, it's november! i know this sounds incredibly cliche, but time seriously flies by faster the older i get. i can't believe it's november and we're heading into another holiday season! it's been almost a YEAR since i got done with my internship. that's insane. (and yet to find a job related to my field haha) i'm so excited for the holiday season. i could type out a thousand different things i LOVE about this time of the year... thanksgiving, family, friends, fires, sweatshirts, sweatpants, hot tea, pumpkin spice lattes, blankets, socks, boots, buying that PERFECT christmas present for someone special (and getting presents!), the first snow, listening to christmas music way too early and on and on!

one of my best friends sent me this quote from a book (cold tangerines) and it's really been on my heart lately....

"when you decide to go on a journey with God, everything is interim...everything is interim. Everything is a path or a preparation for the next thing, and we never know what the next thing is. Life is like that, of course, twisty and surprising. but life with God is like that exponentially. we can dig in, make plans, write in stone, pretend we're not listening, but the voice of God has a way of being heard. it seeps in like smoke or vapor even when we've barred the door against any last minute changes, and it moves us to different countries and different emotional territorIes and different ways of living. it keeps us moving and dancing and watching and never lets us drop down into a life set on cruise control or a life ruled by remote control. life with God is a daring dream, full of flashes and last minute exits and generally all the things we've said we'll never do. and with the surprises comes great HOPE."

i am not good with change. i am not good with things being in the interim. i like plans and i like to write in stone. i constantly feel like i am waiting for things in my life to be settled. but thanks to the loving God i serve and the incredible friends and family i have in my life, i am constantly being gently reminded and encouraged to not settle for the set-in-stone plans i tend to make for myself. i love how this quote talks about the voice of God being as smoke or vapor, seeping in even when we've barred a door against change (which i do often).

i have felt very hopeful this past weekend. hopeful for this season i am in. hopeful for what God is doing in my life. hopeful for the exciting changes that have happened and will be happening in the near future. i pray this hopefulness is something i can continue to cling to. and i continue to learn and be at peace with this constantly shifting, ever changing life we're living. it's a work in progress.

Friday, October 22, 2010


please pray for my family today. i was reminded yesterday of how precious life truly is and how it can not be taken for granted. today i am clinging to the fact that we can't and won't always understand why things happen as they do, and as unfair as they seem, we still serve a good God. a gracious, loving and faithful God. i frequently have to remind myself that i don't see as the Lord sees nor do i understand as He does. and that we will not ever understand why some events happen in our lifetime here on earth. but He still is right there beside us walking through these hard times and He will be faithful through it all. pray for peace, comfort and healing.

i am so thankful to have such a close family. i couldn't ask for a better one.

let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful. hebrews 10:23